imstillbreathing

The sadness ends, and the difficulty continues

i love this song... "the widow" by mars volta
My mom came home from sheppard pratt today...an unexpected..uneasy feeling came over me when i heard her voice...
this is going to be difficult to deal with..we have to all monitor her medication, b/c she will not take it on her own w/out help..
I went to the kitchen and i was talking to her and i asked her what medicine they gave her.she said i dont care im not going to take it anyways...o if she does not i am so making her or sending her back..This shit has gotten a little out of her hand with her behavior and shit.
She will take that medicine if i have to strap her ass down and shove it down her throat, and shes small so i think i can do this...

My ex bf not the fiancee but a weird ass stalker dude i dated for like a couple months...he called me like a million times today. I just wish he would leave me alone. I try to do the ignoring thing...i tried the bitch thing, i think i may have to buy a gun and threaten his life, b/c nothing seems to be working...
i think im giving up on men they cannot read my mind,
good enuf reason right???
But im tired of expressing my feelings and giving hints here and there and then getting them stomped on or ignored...i need a man who can read emotions well...or someone who can read minds so i have to explain nothing b/c i suck at that as well...jus someone who gets me thats all

I need a good time away fromt hsi shit...26 more days and i am gone to cali...can't wait