You and I haven't corresponded in quite some time so forgive me if this feels like I'm intruding.... I just wanted to let you know that I can relate to your experience and that I think you described it exquisitely. To physically surrender, yield your will to another even though your mind may race or question... to find yourself doing as you are instructed regardless, and enjoying it taking comfort in it. It is rare, and precious, I think, to find a person to whom one can submit so naturally.
I'm very interested to hear how all this plays out!
Have a great weekend!