Why drugs are on my list of dislikes..
A few years ago I was a crazy dude in my early 20's, all about being a free-spirit and so against mainstream society in very many ways. I probably wouldn't have found this site had I not been that way. Part of that lifestyle, in my regard, involved experimenting with a fairly wide variety of drugs -- mainly psychadelic, and seeing how they changed my body and consciousness. I was very spiritual at that time (I'm now also an Atheist), and I viewed psychadelics as entheogens, allowing me to experience different planes of spirituality.
I'm now a bit older, and have had more life experiences that have changed my mind on the aforementioned subject matter. Like most people, my drug of choice was marijuana.
Near the end of it all, a major question I was asking myself was why. Why was I needing to get high daily, often more than once, and feeling irritated sometimes if I couldn't, or ran out of weed. People claim they aren't addicted to weed, but in my personal experience, I was absolutely in every way. I smoked it over vaporizing or eating, so my lungs were in horrible shape (not to mention the toxins that come from smoking anything), and that aspect of it was a major reason I started to question the why factor. Obviously weed is not something required for us to feel good and thrive, but a choice people make. I was tired of it controlling me, instead of the other way around, and I made the choice to give it some willpower and cut it for a while. That while turned into months, and now over a year realizing I feel WAY better about myself knowing I am no longer a stoner, and have replaced that habit with so many more healthy and productive activities.
I also want to mention that while I obviously did many other psychadelics, some of the WORST drug trips I had were on marijuana alone. No I'm not kidding. I was a regular smoker, but one time I randomly completely lost control of my consciousness while high, and had a hallucination that I was on the lying floor having a heart attack. I was actually sitting cross legged on the floor at the time, but I literally thought I was lying on the floor dying, and I was screaming out to call an ambulance. In that hallucination I also had an "out of body" experience, which also changed my views on spirituality later leading me to become an atheist.
Trips like that had happened to me more than once while stoned, and I'm not going to lie, in the moment they were terrifying.
So if you choose to experient with drugs or live as a stoner, that's fine. It's your choice. But I am speaking personally saying that I feel way more empowered now that I have actually put the habit behind me. I actually don't know a single other person who has been a stoner and managed to put it behind them for good. It doesn't make me better... it's just my choice, and I love it.
A few years ago I was a crazy dude in my early 20's, all about being a free-spirit and so against mainstream society in very many ways. I probably wouldn't have found this site had I not been that way. Part of that lifestyle, in my regard, involved experimenting with a fairly wide variety of drugs -- mainly psychadelic, and seeing how they changed my body and consciousness. I was very spiritual at that time (I'm now also an Atheist), and I viewed psychadelics as entheogens, allowing me to experience different planes of spirituality.
I'm now a bit older, and have had more life experiences that have changed my mind on the aforementioned subject matter. Like most people, my drug of choice was marijuana.
Near the end of it all, a major question I was asking myself was why. Why was I needing to get high daily, often more than once, and feeling irritated sometimes if I couldn't, or ran out of weed. People claim they aren't addicted to weed, but in my personal experience, I was absolutely in every way. I smoked it over vaporizing or eating, so my lungs were in horrible shape (not to mention the toxins that come from smoking anything), and that aspect of it was a major reason I started to question the why factor. Obviously weed is not something required for us to feel good and thrive, but a choice people make. I was tired of it controlling me, instead of the other way around, and I made the choice to give it some willpower and cut it for a while. That while turned into months, and now over a year realizing I feel WAY better about myself knowing I am no longer a stoner, and have replaced that habit with so many more healthy and productive activities.
I also want to mention that while I obviously did many other psychadelics, some of the WORST drug trips I had were on marijuana alone. No I'm not kidding. I was a regular smoker, but one time I randomly completely lost control of my consciousness while high, and had a hallucination that I was on the lying floor having a heart attack. I was actually sitting cross legged on the floor at the time, but I literally thought I was lying on the floor dying, and I was screaming out to call an ambulance. In that hallucination I also had an "out of body" experience, which also changed my views on spirituality later leading me to become an atheist.
Trips like that had happened to me more than once while stoned, and I'm not going to lie, in the moment they were terrifying.
So if you choose to experient with drugs or live as a stoner, that's fine. It's your choice. But I am speaking personally saying that I feel way more empowered now that I have actually put the habit behind me. I actually don't know a single other person who has been a stoner and managed to put it behind them for good. It doesn't make me better... it's just my choice, and I love it.
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