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Im Constantly Angry these days

Ok so this is my fifth attempt at writing this in three days (and my second mouse as I smashed the last one against the wall with frustration when my PC crashed the last time ) so im not gona go in to much detail as I did last time in order to keep it short

Im angry because..

.My new PC wont be coming, after waiting over a week for a delivery date I get a letter from my caterloge saying that buying the PC would have taken me over my two grand limit so they canceled my order Thanks so much for keeping me waiting you cock sucking vampires , so Im not sure when full SG services will return for meprobably around December time (sorry folks please dont remove me from your friends list cos I do miss all of you )

.my mum coned me out of my savings the other week saying that she was broke, yet as we speak, her and my sister are on holiday in Wales , I wouldnt mind so much but they both earn over a grand a month so why did they feel like taking money from me was necessary?

..I had to turn down tow jobs this week , which actually really upset me because of what the were , the first one was working at my favorite surf shop in all the world, I would have loved to work there because A its a cool shop, and B because it happens to be the shop that I bought my first ever surfboard from so many years ago, unfortunately its located in Santa Monica California and right now I just cant afford to relocate, the second job was a lot more interesting though and id have loved to do it, it was a curators job working at the famous surfing museum in Huntington Beach California, but again I cant afford to relocate, all this has done is depress me and make me mad because its the 8th and 9th job offer this year I have had to turn down.I just hope that the job offers dont completely dry up because Im not far from finishing my court case which means that soon the reason thats been stopping me from relocating for a job (that of being skint and having no money) will no longer be relevant

.ok so thats just about everything thats making me angry right now, Im so mind numbingly bored sitting around the house, and im so totally frustrated that its really beginning to get to me, I need a holiday, I need my friends around me and I need my life to get back to some sort of normality before I go skitz and run out and kill the little shits that frequent the end of my road

sorry about the rant folks, but at least my PC behaved long enough for me to actually finish writing it this time and post it on my Journal, I hope your having a good weekend and that youre all smiling and feeling loved I miss you all and wish that I could chat to you all the time

I'll try to update again soon

Big hugs and lots of love