i just woke up in rare form this morning.. haven't gotten much sleep in the last 2 nights... i'm rather sad today and i'm pretty sure its cuz of the holiday's.. denny's been on my mind & its pissing me off...

i was driving to work this morning and saw a man begging for change in the street.. he was totally handicapped, limping and shit & i just started crying... WTF! i wanna come home to see you guys! TODAY

shit.. i wish. that would great.. and that overwhelming feeling that i just can't do that is still overpowering my decisions.. i'm tired of being a responsible adult

i have class thursday night that i really can't miss, and i was sick for 1.5 days about 2 weeks ago.. i'm fuckin swamped at this hateful place i call work, and i can't really take any time right now..

the earliest i'm going to be able to come back is on x-mas.. and i'm going to stay with you guys, if you don't mind i'd like to come back earlier, but i just don't see that happening with my budget.. i need to watch what i'm spending cuz i'm gong to be moving in Feb.. joy

but Justin wants me to take him to MI, so we may be coming back out there in Jan sometime

i hope he/she is ok.. i go next monday to the drs.. ill probably hear the heartbeat again.. and i go dec 27 for the ultrasound! which im totally pysched about!

yeeeessss.. i played hookey today! fuck that job!

NO.. no weddings for me.. not anytime soon at least..

xmas is coming can you make me another copy of your "Dance CD"? mine has a bit of a scratch on it don't know how that happened.. but now its skippin on one of my favorite songs.. um.. and maybe you could make me a new & improved personalized CD? with more of your favorites?

i just found out too.. that my classes don't start back up til like Jan 17th! which means that i may be able to get to come see you guys again with justin... in early/mid jan.. we'll try..

you know i wasn't going to come back until Friday the 23rd.. but now i think i'll be driving to MI on Thursday afternoon.. mainly cuz justin is flying out on the 20th.. so he won't be here.. there'll be no reason i'll want to stay here in Chicago if he's not here... and i'd prefer to stay with you guys if thats ok???

i do not have to work on that monday, so i'll probably drive home monday morning.. i'm taking Casey back with me

yeah.. we're usually done way before then.. but that sux that you have to work what your guy's plans for x-mas eve?

that's wonderful news.. (for me at least ) cuz i really wanted to spend the whole day with you guys.. i mean, i know we're going to kathy & mark's.. but i wanted the ENTIRE day with you guys... from mornin til night and til next mornin

there's a pic of me & justin from last night on aMillahhighlife's journal... its not a great pic, but that was us.. last night

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ya. my belly is getting big.. just had a dr appointment on monday.. he said i was gaining too much weight.. i said i couldnt help it because i havent been throwing up and im italian ...
im 16 weeks..

zabo took some too.. & posted them in his journal.. funny.. he got justin in a rather entertaining moment to have on film he loves me

no.. he told me a while ago .. but last night was amazing.. we shared a connection that we hadn't felt before.. its amazing how incredible he makes me feel... we can't get enough of each other! we're totally retarded for each other its just rediculous i it!