Four days till Christmas and ten till 2010.
I really feel like Ive achieved nothing yet again even though I've gotten some pretty awesome grades this year I just always feel this way at the end of each year. I don't know why I cant get over myself already, you'd think after living almost entirely on my own for almost 10 years now I'd get used to being alone at this time of year but I always remember the big celebrations my family had as a kid and look at my brothers and sisters and wonder if there's something wrong with me because I'm the only one who hasn't got a family of my own or even many close friends to spend the holidays with.
Last year I ended up going to the doctor to get antidepressants for Christmas to stop myself doing something stupid but the side effects were pretty harsh I was pretty much just a zombie for the next 3 months before I just stopped taking them I just couldn't stay awake half the time and had no energy. So this year I'm just going to tough out and try drinking myself into Oblivion on New Years.
But I hope everyone else has an awesome Christmas, I don't mean to drag everyone down.
I really feel like Ive achieved nothing yet again even though I've gotten some pretty awesome grades this year I just always feel this way at the end of each year. I don't know why I cant get over myself already, you'd think after living almost entirely on my own for almost 10 years now I'd get used to being alone at this time of year but I always remember the big celebrations my family had as a kid and look at my brothers and sisters and wonder if there's something wrong with me because I'm the only one who hasn't got a family of my own or even many close friends to spend the holidays with.
Last year I ended up going to the doctor to get antidepressants for Christmas to stop myself doing something stupid but the side effects were pretty harsh I was pretty much just a zombie for the next 3 months before I just stopped taking them I just couldn't stay awake half the time and had no energy. So this year I'm just going to tough out and try drinking myself into Oblivion on New Years.
But I hope everyone else has an awesome Christmas, I don't mean to drag everyone down.