Growing up I was always the loner, the target, the ugly duckling, the black sheep. I couldn’t even fit in with the rejects.
And that was my life. I will always think of myself as a loner, even though I have a friend.
Thing is, people don’t want to associate with negative types like me, and I become the one that stands out in every situation because I’m simply not like everyone else. I don’t fake it. I don’t put on a façade to make people comfortable. My autism makes me anti-social and it’s too much for most. That is something I came to terms with at an early age.
Frankly I don’t care if you compare me to someone who has qualities that I lack just to try and make me feel small. People do that all the time. Words are weapons. Bludgeon me all you want but it won’t get you what you want from me.
It’s never been my style to fade into the crowd, I will always stand out and be targeted by predators. It’s just a shame that society has turned out this way in 2018.