havok

I think I'm as overwhelmed as anyone could get. way way way to much going on in my life. new house, store renovations, home renovations, money stress, travel stress. I want to just stop. I have no one to go to in my life for advice and it sucks.
I just wish someone would do something for me sometimes... I feel like I constantly smooth things along for everyone around me. If someone has a problem I seem to be able to fix it or offer advice. simple things like my friends asking if I can cut and color their hair on a whim.. I just don't have time right now and they seem to just not see it. No one does my hair for me ever.. people just think it's okay to just cancel on me and let me down. It's like "it's okay.. she can handle it." I can't handle it. I just wish someone would take time for me. Do something nice for me. I'm exhausted.
I guess this will teach me to be a pushover. I'm such a sucker... but at the same time it's been proven to me so many times that if I don't do something myself it just doesn't get done.

I want a hug.