havok

Long time no update... hummm what's happened to me...

I GOT MY FINGERS AND MY FACE TATTOOED!!
yah that's right..

I got three white circles put on either side of my eyes.. and I got both my middle fingers second knuckles tattooed.

I put a diamond on my right hand and a black heart of my left. Josh Nadue and Shawn Thompson from strange city in Edmonton Alberta did them up for me. I love them to bits and they are dreamy.
I got my back finished by mr Chris Iwaniuk from Capital Q tattoos in edmonton.. and after a whole year of being in the works it's finished and completely beautiful. I love it.. and he's a gem for doing it.

I have a little rant to go on about here so bare with me:

I get asked a lot by folks as to what I'm I'm going to do when I'm older *in regards to my tattoos and piercings and such* I get hassled everywhere and people randomly feel it's okay to touch me.. voice opinions.. and insults. I know I'm placed myself outside of the social norm and I'm okay with that. I just don't understand why someone's manners would just go out the window when it comes to common social graces? case and point..

I was at the store the other day after getting my face tattooed. I got three white cirlces put around both sides of my eyes. I love them and think they are beautiful.. I like looking in the mirror and seeing them.. it makes me happy. Not to say I wasn't happy before but this encounter with a lovely human really made me love them even more.
I was at the bake counter asking if they had any more of this vegan bread they make...and this lady GRABS my shoulder and spins me around and goes to touch my new face tattoos.. I jerk away from her and say.
"what the hell do you think you are doing?"
her "oh I just wanted to see if that was real or make-up"
me "it's a tattoo and even if it wasn't, what makes you think you have the right to touch me? you could have just politely asked me"
her "well you kind of make your self a target wouldn't you say?"
normally I wouldn't have being so mean but i had really just had quite the start
me "well to me you are really overweight and have bad hair..do you see me just randomly going up to you and grabbing your gut and asking if you are wearing a fat suit? or puling at your hair to see if it's real? I'd say you've made yourself a target but I have enough social grace to keep my damn mouth shut. It' s really none o my business and I don't have the right to make you uncomfortable. It's called MANNERS..." by this point she is blushing 60 shades of red and people are now looking at us. "please leave me alone and let me buy my groceries."
she walked away not saying a word and red as a tomato.

My answer to people who ask me what I'm going to do when I'm older?...."be really happy"

I'm very aware that the choices I've made may seem odd to some.. but just know that sometimes your choices seem odd to me. I would never choose to sit in a cubical, I would never choose to stay in a relationship with someone that didn't respect my choices and opinions, I would never choose to be anything less than my full potential. I am smart, talented and I'm very happy to still be here to make the choices I have.

I love my life and someone someday will love me for it.