The point is to learn from your experiences until you get old, wise and can teach the youth and give them your wisdom. If you kill yourself, you will never learn and you will never be able to teach what you have learned.
Life is what you make of it. YOu must find the things that make you happy and stick with them. For me, I have to constantly find new and exciting things to do or I get totally bored. I begin to fall into my thoughts and my mind and I can't get out of them. There is a wormhole called the Comfort Zone. It's a familiar place but it will suck you in and never let you go. You have to do something new and different from what it is you normally do every now and again. Then and only then will you feel alive.
Actually, it's going to be the 25th now. They pushed it back which is good case I am addicted to the internet and I don't know what I am going to do withou it.
Anyway, I do a lot of writing and thinking as well. I have places I go where there is no one else or if there is they can't see me. Like hiding in plain sight- in a tree in the bed of my truck etc.
Sometimes I surf the internet looking for new projects to do new ways to distroy things. I very rarely go to theme parks, but when I do, I find it to be a refreshing and exciting adveture. Like being a kid again except you see things in a different light. You also get to watch people. I do a lot of that as well. When I think I am the "only one" I go somewhere, with my music listening device and watch the people be natural...or completely unnatural. It's fun analyzing what they do and why they do it.
Again, these are very small adventures but it's a start. I am also in the military and am in Iraq right now so I've had a hell of alot of time to do some soul searching. I have a totally new perspective on the things I do and the people I love.
I have depression. I've had it for as long as I can remember; for a long time, that's all I was.
And then... it gets better. Okay, and it gets worse again. But the good is so good it's worth waiting for. So please don't do anything stupid. I promise you, it will get better.
That picture you posted intreguies me. If you get a moment, I'd love to hear a bit about it.
Life is what you make of it. YOu must find the things that make you happy and stick with them. For me, I have to constantly find new and exciting things to do or I get totally bored. I begin to fall into my thoughts and my mind and I can't get out of them. There is a wormhole called the Comfort Zone. It's a familiar place but it will suck you in and never let you go. You have to do something new and different from what it is you normally do every now and again. Then and only then will you feel alive.
Plus, how will I talk to you.