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This year the holidays haven't taken as much out of me as they usually have the past few years. On 11/24/08 I became a father of twins and was happier than anyone in the world, but on Christmas morning the next month
my son Aiden had passed away. I had fallen farther than I ever thought possible and then the unthinkable happened. Just a short time later on January the 3rd my daughter Amelia passed away as well. The past 3 years have been tough and in the beginning I didn't even think I would be able to survive. Every year though I remind myself that they both would want me to live on and continue to grow. I may be sad at times and even fall to the ground but I know they both love me as much as I love them and it keeps me going. The love I feel for my little snow angels helps to keep me strong whenever I am weak. They hold me together when all I want to do is break and keep me sane when my mind wants to crack. The proudest and happiest moment of my life will always be the day they were born.