gravedoll666

hullos all you lucky ppls u, I mean 'lucky' as in that you have me and and I mean 'people' as in the people who like me.
Well I am rotting on my ass, watching Euro trip waiting to find out if my husband is flying out tomorrow or they will fuck him over till nxt friday! "scotty doesn't know, scotty doesn't know" sorry spazzing out on 6 hours of sleep, doesn't sound that bad but the day before I was up all night and slept all day. I submitted an idea to a t-shirt company, called t-shirt hell. I hope that they might use it but I'm afraid that they won't b/c there isn't a sexual enu endo in it. But it does have a some what irony to it. I dunno, I need to go to a confidence class, either that have someone whip my lazy ass! I need direction. Beisdes "fuck you" or "go fuck yourself". My heart is in complete tormoil it's an empty feeling taht I can't fucking stand! It's racking my fucking brain to the equavilant of the presidents fucking brain! GOOOOOODD! I'm going off the damn walls..*oh caffines kickin' in....*
Bitter sweetness
Like a memory that you cannot go back to
except in your mind
Like family and friends you've lost
Yet you still have pictures
The days only pass through by my window
all by the light and darkness, the orange glow of the sun and the pale light of the moon
Never by your sweetness Never by your gaze
The wind whispers as I call your name, tears follow
I feel despair's icy grip around my heart
I used to feel desire and passion
the heated flame of the love we once held in our hearts
I know you'll be back but yet I sit and wait and Pray we can be together again, that fate will not be cruel for I am still young but ready to stay by his side
For as long as it takes
i will wait
for i don't want my life to be bitter sweet