gracie

Happiness is so temporary. Everything is really awful right now. I'm stressed out, nauseated and I can't sleep. I thought this fall was going to be one of the best times of my life and it's quickly becoming the worst.

I've got no support system at home. I'm not listened to or appreciated. I have to play accountant, mom, maid...and on top of it all I'm soon going to be the only person left in my department at work. Well, the only person left in addition to my over-demanding and often mean boss.

I'm a wreck. The person who should care the most and make an effort to help make things easier just doesn't. He's too busy doing everything he wants to do and I get dumb excuses as to why.

I feel like crying all the time. Right now is no exception. We have plans for the future that are going to be destroyed by selfishness, carelessness and frivolous spending. I'm finding it hard to believe anything we want for the future is attainable.

I have limits and can't continue to slap a smile on my face and bear it for the sake of pretending everything's okay.

I'm so tired. So sad and so very tired.


I've cancelled my account here for now because I'm cancelling the internet for now. I'm paying 60 dollars a month to complicate my life just a bit more. It all has to stop before I lose my mind.