Fuck! That's about ME!

I dare you to speak of your despise
For bureaucracy, hypocracy - all liars

Abolutely Doll, I totally know those lyrics and feel every single fucking line of that song. I doubt any of those fucking skinny prima donna's have Ever looked inside themselves and known anything Close to being REAL. Do they even know what the fuck that means? I doubt it. Too obsessed with self-image, gotta be the perfect size 2 with no blemishes and GOD FORBID stretch marks

And Bloody HELL, that only took 4 DAYS to get to you Christ, that pentacle REALLY wanted to get to you in time didn't it It looks Awesome on there with all the lights going through it Yay, I picked a good 'un

WooHoo!!! We (I) don't really do anything on Halloween, the kids aren't really of an age to understand too much about it yet. But if you're coming over here, then We will DEFINITELY hit up a pub somewhere and get plastered I'm off to London on November 11th hopefully, just put my holiday request in at work to get the Friday shift off, so if you're still around in the UK then, head over to London and we can meet up Again

All I can say about the knee-cap Doll is OUCH! I have problems with mine cracking out of shape every so often, but not on the scale yours are Doll. Hope the cast is off soon!

I will mail you about the design Doll, thanks so much for offering

Love and kisses
Michelle xx

Hiya Sadie!

I've not had the best of weekends...went out on e night and had a guy tell me I'd be pretty if I wasn't fat...then my mother got mad at me because she doesn't think Im taking care of myself and said she'd piss on my grave if I died. Then also told me I would go to hell....Much fun was had by me this weekend.

I hope things get better soon. I don't know how much more my heart can take

I'm a tryin'.

hope you leg gets better soon

that slug is weird, but also cool

Hey Sadie....I have to admit I only read 1/2 your journal...but you know me..... anyway....HELL-O

43 is about as real as i can get. thanks for the smurfday wishes. yeah i recreated a touching moment and made myself all blue. . you know i am who i am nothing less nothing more . I LOVE DA GORE WHORE! SADIE IS MY hero! and believe me she's got more bawls than most guys i know and thats more Real than real!

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ER? hope you're ok!

Real on SG? na - RL is for being real, SG is for - WTF it's for, I'm not altogether sure what that is tho, really. I'm not entirely sure the PTB are sure of what they made either.

I will say it's cool that I've got to (somewhat) meet so may different kinds of people - altho for some reason all the best ones (including you) are in Canada - how weird is that?

The "poor me" kiddies? I just look at'm naked and wonder what they're gonna say at 30 or 40.

I'm pretty sure I'm pretty much me whereever I am tho

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Hiya Sadie. How's it going? That crystal is lovely. I imagine you also have lots of healing crystals of your own, hopefully they will help with your knee! As for Mr.Holey slug, I'm not suprised! The things are built like steel hehe. Maybe he had an old piercing?

About your main concern's,Yup, I totally get what your saying. Personally, I try not to let it get me angry anymore and I do that with a little distance. I think concentrating on what's happening in your own life is always more important than getting annoyed about the postings of people who seem to elevate any tiny problem of their own into a major thing. It's a poor show for sure but I guess it's just the norm these days eh. I think maybe now I hit the age I never wanted to, I just want to be even less stressed and more chilled!

Someone got me a toy fossil kit for my birthday. It says "ages 4-6" on it.
It's a soft plaster block that you have to dig away at to find the replica fossil inside. Hmm, I guess they know I didn't want to grow up hehe.
Anyway, as you'd probably tell me, just breathe slowly, drink some wine and watch a cheap flick. It will work for sure.
x

Hey babe, why didnt you tell me that you have Datura leaves. Do you have any Peyote? That is the stuff I really want to get my hands on. I want to meet the gods then punch them in the face. Thanks for the well wishes. I can see that you are feeling a bit down about the overwelming CRAPosity of this site. I too came to this site with the missconception that I would meet people that would offer company that I would enjoy. Alas my fantisful ideal was soon shadderd, as you coinned so well, by an ubsurd amount of rich barts. Although I found a few souls, I am now under the asumtion that this being real thing is not normal and in fact the few unlucky ones that find themselfs aflicted with being real shoulld quickly find a cure for it. Faced with an society that produces a million clones a second, what chance does the one in a million real person has? What is worse is that with the few real people out there, there is now some kind of mentality that entitles any person with a shard of personality to be uppity assholes that are too good for the rest of the world. In sight of this I have decided that the world and everybody else can be as weird and original, or grab as much attention as they need. All I am going to do is order a pizza, whip out my guitar and play power metal until my fingers bleed. Really what else is there to do? Its not even like it use to be that you were able to know where you stand because be real was something nobody wanted to be, unless you were a real person. But then again, the millions of american idol veiwers may in fact be the real people out there, and I just an angry abnormal sigularty that has it all backwards. I am not even sure anymore. All I know is pzza + guitar = peace of mind. I say let the rich barts get naked and complain all they want; and let the 30 years old basement dwellers and trendy metrosexuals feed them that pitty untill they swell at every seem, and all their pores ouze with it. I couldnt give two shits anmore. I suggest that you dont challange them because it will just fuel their self rigtious fires, and take the best advise I was ever given. Just ignor people when they are being silly and they will get tired of it. Anyways heal up soon!

i get what what your saying,

Woah.
Sorry you could not have been on this site a few years ago. It was WAY different. Alot more close knit. Now I can not even believe how many new SG's I have not even seen before. Its starting to grow well beyond what I was used to. Some ways that is good. Some bad. Sorry to hear how you feel. I am also sorry to not have been up to date as well as I should have. You are an awesome woman who has always taken time to write ALL of her friends nice, long, and interesting posts.

I agree with you 100% about snowballinhell She has been nothing but wonderful! Thats why I am making her some dvd's loaded with music so she does not have to go out and buy a bunch of albums.

Why? Honestly, I don't know anymore.

The notion of making new friends turned to shit pretty quickly.

The nudity on demand thing got old.

Actually, I stumbled onto SG by chance. When I was hospitalized for my bonemarrow transplant a laptop was made available to me, courtesy of Phoenix Good Sam. I joined SG 'cos I had nothing better to do.

Now, I suspect that quitting this place might be a steppingstone to true authenticity.

Well, whatever the case may be, trying to be nice to people hasn't paid any dividends for me. But I have gotten some satisfaction brawling with people over pretty much nothing, sometimes I win!

i indeed have dear <3

oooh that prism with the pentagram in it is SOOOO PRETTY!!!!


-muah-
ya rock.

now i just need you for like.... some stuff yeah

Oh Sadie, I know the malaise this place can put forth...
And I see this not only in SG but in any scene
we come to these places to be ourselves, but everyone is so afraid!
I hate Goth. clubs because its a goddamned high school prom
not a fun and dirty spot for like minds to communicate and exchange
but a place to prance and bitch. I find them even more despicable than malls.
And the pink obsession, its celebrity.
I loath how our society creates gods out of these people (insert actor, musicians, naked chicks)
its fucking religion worship of completely undeserving deities. One should admire art, not worship a fucking human! (Well, unless its Vincent ;p) And while we are on the subject of money Im totally going to join the rant-I fucking hate it! I hate the duality of life- those born with silver spoons and trust funds are so spoiled! there is this one particular local band that has a very whiney lead singer, and has never had to work a fucking day in her life. Mum and Da bought her a house, sent her all over Europe, and she had a FUCKING MAID TO FLIP HER RECORD PLAYER FOR HER!!!!
Perhaps its my mom who installed this hated for the rich in me, she is a maid, and I can not count the times Id have to go with her and help her clean for all the rich fucks that are to good to wipe down their fucking toilets.
The thoughts of a real revolution against these fat cats looks yummier and yummier day by day.

Alas SG does kind of suck, but perhaps thats because it whole real purpose is entirely focused on the physical appearance of a dame (even if they claim its not ) but I have found few gems on here.
Like you!
My most positive of energies and wishes to you, from the woods of NH, my gorewhore queen!

~mary~

You're so lovely... And you took all the words that wanted to burble forth - and made them yer own! Photoshopped reality? I can dig it.

So... Friday it turns out Mum's booked a hair appt. in town... we'll be in Van by mid-afternoon. I'll be phoning today, but thought I'd send an 'hullo' here, too.
Jeez, I just can't get out of this place!... It's like a really pretty purgatory...


Sorry to hear about yer arthritis. It runs in my family, so I'm sure that at some point I will feel your pain. Until then, I can opnly empathize - NOT PITY! To HELL with pity... Wait, I'd rather not have pity whilst visiting Satan and his minions... I do, however, have my handbag picked out!... It's blue vinyl, and vintage - of COURSE.

Gosh, Ilove writing you messages - because I know that my ranting and random references will be understood.... Or appreciated!

ALright, take care, schweetie - I shall be in your arms soon!...
Until then,
I remain your ghoulish glam gorewhore - especially when I'm hungover like today!

Heyhey.

Hope the hospital trip wasnt anything nasty and I hope that life is treating you right.

We're back online at last, with a speedy connection, so I'll be in TAA chat on Sun.

Nice rant, and I'd agree with most of it. SG can often be a big, dumb popularity contest and a home for sad, lonely sycophants who are nowhere near as 'alternative' as they think they are.
The majority of members can seem to be vapid bandwagon-jumping fuckwits and whiney emo cunts, but there are still plenty of genuinely interesting and nice people here, and very creatively talented people (who I seek out and steal for my movies).
I guess SG has been good to me - I met my fantastic girl via this site, and made numerous real friends - so I'll stick with it.
But all the shit that comes with it annoys me too. And I never understood why flashing your tits on a website makes a person special and worthy of so much adulation...

aaanyway, before I get zotted I just thought I'd drop by to say ello and that I'll be sticking around.
(oh, aint got that package from Apy yet - we never seem to get parcels delivered here for some reason. grr)
take care



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Thats a cool pentagram tryangle thing!I am in a great mood as DANZIG and alot of other bands that I like(mostly black/death metal bands )are coming to town in around the end of october allso known as octob ha ha ha ok so that was a realy lame joke but .So how is life undead?

hey !! good post,- you know what!!!---------youre right, i have the same problem with people here and on another forum/page from time to time, i keep thinking "get some real problems, and dont bother me with this crap!", so i have just stopped looking at ppls pages
, well,- how are things any way? (besides the hospital trip),
well,- atleast, im doing fine and we are busy at the theatre, so that is all good.
btw, for some strange reason (i thinlk ive told this before) i cant log on to any chat any more so i cant come to the TAA, but i will see if my friend can fix it, hope fully he can

Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Shit and Fuck and Amen!

Sorry, I took so long to check in and see what was going on with you. (I feel sure you understand without explination) I WILL see you tomorrow and we can chat it up.

Please, take care of yourself and fuck this shit. If nothing else at lest this site has brought together a collection of people who have lived life and coinitune to do so every day!

Do me a fav!

Smile!!!!