i'm sorry you're not feeling well. i can't imagine how having your uterus turn itself inside out feels. but it can't be good.
i'm sorry too that you don't feel happy or good. there are people out there that love you and care about you. i find that thinking about that sometimes makes me feel better. but sometimes it makes me feel like i'm failing them even more...so maybe that's not always the best route. i'd be the first to say that you're not going to be happy all the time, but even when i'm at my lowest i'd be hard-pressed to use the word "hate" to describe how I feel about myself. but then again, i'm probably projecting and not seeing what you're feeling. i think i'll stop while i'm halfway into this hole.
~cheers