My cigarette expedition was a failure.. lol I went 8 days without and then when my mom and I got home from our Costa Rica trip, we got a pack of cigarettes because we were so stressed out from backpacking across Latin America.. I hate customs. That's really all I have to say about that. I kept trying to get my mom to just cross the Costa Rica border without even getting a stamp. Those fools there are the laziest sons of bitches I've ever ran across and certainly not the most understanding. You know that feeling when you look into someone's eyes and you just KNOW they absolutely hate their job. =p
I felt that I deserved it though. I still am going to quit, but I think it might take me a bit longer. I've gotten off of my meds (and been off of them free of any huge withdrawals or problems thus far) also I quit smoking for 8 days (on a VACATION) and that's a feat in itself. =] Other wise it was an amazing trip and my soul feels cleaner(?) Don't know how that's possible, but my head feels clear and accomplished. =] It was a great trip even though it was extremely strange and at times almost impossible. But my mom and I did it, and we had a great journey together. I feel a lot closer to my mom than I have in yearsssss. It's foreign but I'm letting it into my heart. I realized I need to take down my boundaries and allow myself and my mind to be free again. I keep all these thoughts to myself and for years and years they just fester and build up. I let my emotions get the best of me and lock out most human interaction that scares me in fear of getting hurt again. Now I'm going to make a conscious effort to roll with the punches and keep my mind open. lol There's my epiphany for the month. =p
Well I could go into detail about our crazy Costa Rica trip and tell about the insane environmentalist we stayed with.. haha but I'll just post my pics instead. Sorry if they're blurry or shitty, I had to resize them because it takes about 10 minutes per picture to load on here when they're the original size.. Anyways.. Here they are. =]
I felt that I deserved it though. I still am going to quit, but I think it might take me a bit longer. I've gotten off of my meds (and been off of them free of any huge withdrawals or problems thus far) also I quit smoking for 8 days (on a VACATION) and that's a feat in itself. =] Other wise it was an amazing trip and my soul feels cleaner(?) Don't know how that's possible, but my head feels clear and accomplished. =] It was a great trip even though it was extremely strange and at times almost impossible. But my mom and I did it, and we had a great journey together. I feel a lot closer to my mom than I have in yearsssss. It's foreign but I'm letting it into my heart. I realized I need to take down my boundaries and allow myself and my mind to be free again. I keep all these thoughts to myself and for years and years they just fester and build up. I let my emotions get the best of me and lock out most human interaction that scares me in fear of getting hurt again. Now I'm going to make a conscious effort to roll with the punches and keep my mind open. lol There's my epiphany for the month. =p
Well I could go into detail about our crazy Costa Rica trip and tell about the insane environmentalist we stayed with.. haha but I'll just post my pics instead. Sorry if they're blurry or shitty, I had to resize them because it takes about 10 minutes per picture to load on here when they're the original size.. Anyways.. Here they are. =]
We visited an animal reserve. A pit viper.
Hope everyone's been great. Now I'm back in Panama and ready to get some work done on the house here. Mom and I are on a mission to brighten this place up.
Anyways, coffee's calling. =]
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Really liked your pictures too, the country looks really interesting.
Thanks for your comment & support. I don't know what's wrong with these people. Don't they realize how wonderful we are?
*lights cigarette*