georgieporge

Smoking.... grr.... why did I ever start smoking. I was 18 when I started and now its become such a pain. I was doing fine with quitting until I lit one up yesterday and said 'oh just with this one cup of coffee' and then for the rest of the day I was taking a drag here, sharing one with my brother there etc etc. All in all I must have ended up smoking maybe 4 cigarettes yesterday? It was ok when I was just having 1 at night but when I smoke in the morning then I am craving it the rest of the day. So today I am doing a quick cold-turkey turn off to make up for yesterdays slip up. It probably sounds like I will never fully quit at this rate but I think I have it under control, I'm just easing my body into it because I'm honestly having a bigger problem with the physical withdrawal than the psychological 'whatever' that most people say is so hard to get over. I never used smoking to define part of my personality. When I started smoking at 18 in fact not even my friends knew I smoked. It was my secret, I used to light one up when I walked my dog, waited for a bus.... whenever I was alone and just wanted to space out a little. I was always one for daydreaming so... the shoe fit for a wile. But I was also one for sports so the shoe got old and stinky. I'm going to quit this time for sure.
In other news, I did some updates for the website I'm working on today and I'm looking forward to jumping into it and playing around to see whats up. Hopefully I won't have any unpleasant surprises otherwise I'll go sit by the pool all day instead, can't be bothered with any heavy challenges today... its just too hot outside!
I'm glad I'm back here and surfing around, blogging again. I was after this gal that works at my local bar here but turns out she has a boyfriend. I don't mean to sound cold but I wish I could ask for all the money I paid on shots those 2 weeks it took her to clue me in! But we had a nice talk about it in fact, and I'm very cool with her Another gal I'm really cool with is Voodou who I met in the chat rooms and who thanks to some comment exchanging we had I couldn't keep a straight face when talking to someone else yesterday. I had just looked up from my screen and she was telling me something really serious and was like "What the hell are you so smiley about?" which of course totally cracked me up. So I'm grateful for that and her Robo Lament Set. And this morning Satya put me in a really good mood with a short but sweet response to something I was pondering over the last few days.... the conclusion of which for me was to try and get back into Tantra, its going to be difficult seeing how I'm alone and single, but I guess in other ways it is going to be easier. Indeed Satya's Rubber Remedy set cured my lonely blues this morning.
Anyway, I should get back to work so thats all for now.

Cheers