It's funny how things might have worked out.
I recently cut off ties with someone that I've called my friend for a LONG time. The more I think about it though, the more I wonder how much of a friend she actually was. Back in high school, now that I'm looking back and because hindsight is prime, I realize now how much she manipulated me because I had a long-term crush on her. It actually makes me incredibly angry. There are other reasons for cutting off friendship, but I don't even want to get into it because it'll make me so angry I'll lose sleep again.
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I was recently talking with somebody else, who I've become a lot closer with over the past 4 years, despite the fact that we haven't even lived in the same state most of the time. She's probably the closest friend I've got in the Chicago area.
She's married now, for about a month, and I tend to hear all the stories of arguments (unsurprisingly, related to the friend I used to have. This should tell you something of ex-friend's character.) The other night, we had carpooled to a game night to save gas, and on the ride home we were talking about the college years. We came to the conclusion that if she had gone to the same college I had gone to, as had been originally planned (but didn't happen because of life), we would either be in exactly the same friendly relationship as we have now, we would be dating or married, or we would be absolutely sick of each other.
It's funny how a close friend, somebody who actually knows you, can reach inside your head and pull out something you'd never dare to tell them out loud. I've had a terrible crush on her since senior year of high school.
Gah.
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Worksearch goes on as usual. Finally got my new website updated, so if you want to take a look and give me advice, feel free. -- http://nathantuttledesign.com -- I've been working on the Marshall Jazz website for more than a month now, and I'm still not done. I need to train myself to be more confrontational in order to get what I need to finish the site. My contact at Marshall is my bro-in-law, so I have trouble getting the info i need. I want to finish this damn thing!
Buh.
I recently cut off ties with someone that I've called my friend for a LONG time. The more I think about it though, the more I wonder how much of a friend she actually was. Back in high school, now that I'm looking back and because hindsight is prime, I realize now how much she manipulated me because I had a long-term crush on her. It actually makes me incredibly angry. There are other reasons for cutting off friendship, but I don't even want to get into it because it'll make me so angry I'll lose sleep again.
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I was recently talking with somebody else, who I've become a lot closer with over the past 4 years, despite the fact that we haven't even lived in the same state most of the time. She's probably the closest friend I've got in the Chicago area.
She's married now, for about a month, and I tend to hear all the stories of arguments (unsurprisingly, related to the friend I used to have. This should tell you something of ex-friend's character.) The other night, we had carpooled to a game night to save gas, and on the ride home we were talking about the college years. We came to the conclusion that if she had gone to the same college I had gone to, as had been originally planned (but didn't happen because of life), we would either be in exactly the same friendly relationship as we have now, we would be dating or married, or we would be absolutely sick of each other.
It's funny how a close friend, somebody who actually knows you, can reach inside your head and pull out something you'd never dare to tell them out loud. I've had a terrible crush on her since senior year of high school.
Gah.
--
Worksearch goes on as usual. Finally got my new website updated, so if you want to take a look and give me advice, feel free. -- http://nathantuttledesign.com -- I've been working on the Marshall Jazz website for more than a month now, and I'm still not done. I need to train myself to be more confrontational in order to get what I need to finish the site. My contact at Marshall is my bro-in-law, so I have trouble getting the info i need. I want to finish this damn thing!
Buh.
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jennylou:
Happy Birthday!
zarth:
I certainly hope you have a happier birthday than your September 20th was.