I don't know how you have done what you have done. With great courage and sacrifice, I imagine. Even though I haven't been on a battlefield...I can kind of relate to that feeling of losing something, and I just don't know how to get it back!.
I understand the feelings of "am I doing all that I could be doing with my life?" I go through those periods every few months. I wonder if I should try to go back to school, if I'm ever going to have a job that doesn't involve some aspect of stripping, if I'm ever going to feel normal or get the chance to settle down and have kids... There's not much you can do about it BUT talk about it and get it out of your system. The longer I hold it in, the worse off I am. Getting it out there... letting someone, anyone, know how things are affecting me tends to help me process a situation better. It doesn't neccessarily make things okay by talking about it. But it does feel good to purge my thoughts.
I also know guys process things different from girls, so maybe everything i've just said makes no sense. =| It is good to maintain focus on the things in your life that are good and make it worth living.
David you are a braver soul than me.....you had gone through a lot in a short time....I can only imagine what your experiences in the military have been like. I respect and thank you for what you have done.......I hope you find happiness and sense of accomplishment in whatever you do down the road.......
