filmme

...and now I'm totally depressed.

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I spent so long and hard making my film. I put everything I am and was and is into it and no that it's finished, I realize I have completely neglected my life.

My only friends are the ones I make films with. I have others, but I have almost systematically ignored them for almost three years. I barely talk to my family. I live in the same city as my brother, and I havent spoken to im in two months. I had a beautiful girlfriend who left to find greener pastures. (I dont completely blame myself for that one... I willl write those who asked me for what it was later) My health is deteriorating because I'm so stressed out and have such little money I can barely afford to ltake care of myself and all the whileI spent so much time filling my life with this film...

that now that its gone.. all that's left is this life and happiness-sized hole.