I'm sorry you are having a bad time of it sweetie, yeah my moods tend to swing and have been known to completely crush me at times and like you I'm my own worst enemy when I'm like this
I miss the waves and the beach all the time I wish I could get to the coast more often than I do, so did you used to surf or do you just miss the waves in gen?
your hot water bottle sounds cool your the third person on here (including myself) that has a mad hot water bottle we should start a gallery or something lol
oh my goodness sweet. Ill send you a package of goodies im going food shopping today. Maybe eat rice/baked beans or porridge, they fill you up way more than bread and are cheap too. Blergh to your sitch.....maybe you should come home for a while, defer your studies and then pop back over when you can and feel better? I miss you, come to the west side!!! Ill cheer you up! hey just a thought also.....have u enquired about government assistance? you'd be eligible as your a british citizen!
I've only just read your journal. It disgusts me that you are suffering because of their bloody incompetence - & apathy probably.
How are you doing at the moment? Have the idiots come up with the cash yet?
*hugs*