i can be rough around the edges. well, scratch the whole can be part and put in the word "am". i am rough around the edges. i like things (saying and doing) that make people uncomfortable. i use words that insult entire populations. i get in fights at bars on occasion. i enjoy jokes that involves dead babies, rape, or a combination of the two. in fact, there isnt a part of me that everyone wont find abrasive in one way or another.
that being said, i have some really good friends who love me for it. not only that, but their families love me too. i show up and the stiffest of the stiff (in certain situations) loosen up and start making jokes about all the worst things. one of my friends moms even makes inappropriate jokes with me as the butt of them, on a daily basis when i am around. apparently an activity that only happens when i am there (she's very demure otherwise).
but what i'm noticing is that i am now turning into an excuse for people to behave "badly". its not something that has come on all of a sudden, but i've never held my tongue with anyone, so after a while people just seem to stop whatever common social behaviors that they usually practice in favor of my more...relaxed form of human interaction. and i dont know how good or bad of a thing that is. on the one hand its great being able to act however i want around a multitude of people. people who do in fact accept me for who i am. on the other hand, it is a little...i dont know how to describe the feeling yet really, but its a little ____________ to be around people who i've cause to completely shirk some of their social norms (one of which is a fairly strict irish catholic family).
i mean yeah, its definitely kind of cool to have that kind of sway over people. to change how they function on a day to day basis. and not just the ones i see a lot but their families as well. parents and siblings that i only see a few times a year. on the other hand its kind of disappointing that some people would be so easily swayed from their upbringings and its also a little scary how much influence i can have in such a short period of time.
that is all for now.
that being said, i have some really good friends who love me for it. not only that, but their families love me too. i show up and the stiffest of the stiff (in certain situations) loosen up and start making jokes about all the worst things. one of my friends moms even makes inappropriate jokes with me as the butt of them, on a daily basis when i am around. apparently an activity that only happens when i am there (she's very demure otherwise).
but what i'm noticing is that i am now turning into an excuse for people to behave "badly". its not something that has come on all of a sudden, but i've never held my tongue with anyone, so after a while people just seem to stop whatever common social behaviors that they usually practice in favor of my more...relaxed form of human interaction. and i dont know how good or bad of a thing that is. on the one hand its great being able to act however i want around a multitude of people. people who do in fact accept me for who i am. on the other hand, it is a little...i dont know how to describe the feeling yet really, but its a little ____________ to be around people who i've cause to completely shirk some of their social norms (one of which is a fairly strict irish catholic family).
i mean yeah, its definitely kind of cool to have that kind of sway over people. to change how they function on a day to day basis. and not just the ones i see a lot but their families as well. parents and siblings that i only see a few times a year. on the other hand its kind of disappointing that some people would be so easily swayed from their upbringings and its also a little scary how much influence i can have in such a short period of time.
that is all for now.
I dont have sex with the ham sandwhich before I eat it.