evil_mad_hatter

One of these days I'm hoping I can get over this fear that possesses me. I finalyy got done writing the first chapter of the current book I'm working on, and now I'm stuck on chapter two. It's odd because I've written it before, in a different form, so it's an adaptation, but I'm frozen. Frozen in fear that my my talent isn't enough. It's that bloody seed of doubt. I know I have it and that I have all I need. I have so much talent it's overwhelming sometimes. All day long I think of scenes and scenarios, But I sit down and it all sits at the edge of my mind screaming to be let out, and I hesitate. This current project is epic, massively epic, Wheel of Time kind of epic. I need to get moving, I see five to eight more books in this series alone, along with all the other books I want to write, the books I need to write.

That's it; fuck fear, fuck hesitation, I have three nights I can spend writing this week, I'm getting at least two chapters done. I've written the next two out previously. One I lost due to housing complications, and the other I have here on this system, but both need something. So i'm starting from scratch with a new outlook and more time invested in theorizing. This should be fun.

I have to apologize to LIPSTICKBETTY. I accidentally erased her from my friends list. Sorry sweet stuff, wasn't paying attention and have a lot one my mind.

To all of you, you know I love you, baby.