i feel like i'm about 800000 years old right now. i can barely walk. i tried to go without crutches and about half way to class regretted that decision immensely.
im still swollen, stiff and sore. i have a little more movement back, but now my arms hurt from the crutches. like seriously, thats the last thing i need. not so fun. and the meds don't work. everything with this situation is just going wrong.
and all right before finals. i have excellent timing.
no one has checked in on me except Maeghan. not even my parents. so i'm feeling pretty shitty right now. i feel like i need to have a good cry, but i haven't cried in years because crying shows that you are vulnerable. oh the great life lessons i learn from my fucked up mother and her fucking insecurities.
all i want is for the meds to work, for my finals to be over, and for someone to love me. i feel so alone.
im still swollen, stiff and sore. i have a little more movement back, but now my arms hurt from the crutches. like seriously, thats the last thing i need. not so fun. and the meds don't work. everything with this situation is just going wrong.
and all right before finals. i have excellent timing.
no one has checked in on me except Maeghan. not even my parents. so i'm feeling pretty shitty right now. i feel like i need to have a good cry, but i haven't cried in years because crying shows that you are vulnerable. oh the great life lessons i learn from my fucked up mother and her fucking insecurities.
all i want is for the meds to work, for my finals to be over, and for someone to love me. i feel so alone.
VIEW 10 of 10 COMMENTS
eveski:
awhhh thanks guys <3
ruck:
I got hit by a car on my bike about a month ago and hit my shoulder really bad and couldn't use my left arm for a month. It was really scary not knowing how long it would take or even if id regain mobility, but over the last two or three days I have finally had full range of motion again, though still really sore. I can only imagine how frustrating what you are going through must be