elliesmell

oh no its emo time!

its all a bit fucked up right now and im not really sure why im doing what im doing. on monday night i was out and i ended up getting into a very heavy making out session in the middle of the union with a really good friend, and it felt really good, and it wasnt awkward or weird when we were back with all our friends and people were taking the piss, but then, i got home, and i headed to a houseparty, and this guy who i was with two mondays ago was there (we just kind of did stuff last time, and i stayed in his bed the whole night and the next morning was fine, we chatted, said goodbye and shared a cheerio kiss, anyway he had lost his room key so, oh no, he has no bed, so, being the kind soul i am i let him sleep in my bed, and we had sex, and it was fucking amazing.. and it wasnt awkward again, he stayed the whole night, we chatted in the morning and that. but i felt kind of crappy because i had just been with my good friend, with whom theres been a lot of tension, then i go home and fuck someone else? anyway, also, the condom split, so i had to get the morning after pill, again, two people i've had sex with, both one night stands, both required the morning after pill, so i feel pretty low right now. then, on wednesday night i was pretty fucked, and ended up going to another house party, where i fully tongued this girl i know really well, kissed my good friend a little more passionately than a regular lip kiss should be, and then made out with one of my neighbours.

in conclusion, my brains fucked. i dont know what to think about anyone anymore.

although, on a plus note, the sex was good, and i also saw one of my friends drunk like i'd never seen him before and it was fucking hilarious