When I was a younger kid, I found my way onto a fine art nude website and... let just say it was the FIRST pussy I had ever seen up close. The artistry behind the way it was photographed... lit... printed. It was gorgeous! Later that year when my best friend found his dad's playboy... I didn't care. It wasn't that beautiful piece of art. Don't get me wrong... It WAS hot, but it just wasn't the same. I barely looked.
As I came off of my session with Gianna, I decided to branch out onto the more art side of things. I could never strip the color from these images, I did once upon a time... but the fact that her nipple is partially green makes me laugh because the night previous her boyfriend had introduced her to the fun of nipple clamps.
I took that same soft box from Gianna's session and I put it higher on the stand. I angled it down... and when I looked through my camera... I was BLOWN away! The depth of the shadows, the contrast of light to dark. It reminded me of the old Renaissance painters who had inspired me so much in high school. I remember telling her just how excited I was... I must have looked like a crazed evil scientist. Dialing in the lights, adjusting her body just slightly. POSING. I discovered the true meaning of posing. With just the shift of a wrist or elbow an entire side of the body could be dark. It was a whole new Alchemy!
She was the flattest chested girl I had ever photographed. But it did something to the lighting. Her nipples stood so strongly against the bright reflection of her chest. I couldn't help but stare in amazement. I always kind of liked smaller breasts, but the beauty in her form was... something else.
Halfway through the session she smiled and said, "did you know I can dance?" I watched as her body contorted and shifted from light to dark; clicking away feverishly! Is this what painters feel when they find a muse? She was truly my first MUSE. I had become a "Master" of sorts. Tasha was a mentor, Gianna was an incredible soul in passing. I got to work with Amber.
As I instructed her to shift and contort I was pleased with the immediate changes coming back in my camera. I was truly painting with light. And I FUCKING LOVED IT!!
This session is what got me originally banned from Instagram. I remember feeling so destroyed. I created this incredible art... and I was squashed. My (at the time) wife didn't want to see or hear about it. She found the only print I ever made and got pissed because she was CERTAIN I was fucking these women. 🙄 She couldn't fathom that sex was the LAST thing on my mind. And I needed someone to celebrate my victories.
Now I didn't ONLY shoot bodyscapes with this session...
I wanted to fix what I had missed with Gianna. I wanted to get the lighting perfect. And the bodyscapes had taught me more than I knew.
I would do several more sessions with Amber before the end. I remember our last shoot. A new (jealous) boyfriend, growing older and wanting something more for herself. We grew apart. And I found myself looking for a new Muse. This was the first time I really recognized the value of having a partner creatively. Someone who could bounce ideas off of you and who you could likewise bounce ideas off of.
What magical times!