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Friday Mar 03, 2006

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Sometimes, life feels to be in auto pilot. Nothings wrong, things only feel not quite right. Regardless you cant seem to get to the controls. Youve become a passive observer in you own life for an indefinite amount of time, like having a cold, you know it will end, but how long will it take?
It reminds me of a recurring dream I have not too often. Im in a car, in the passenger seat, with the seatbelt on heading down a long but not too steep hill, with no one in the driver seat. Im not scared, but just a bit hurried to get into the drivers seat, and I always wake up just before I gain control of the car.
For the few of you here who know me, Im not one to sit idle. This feeling is just out of sorts. Im not hurried to force control, but Im curious where things are going.
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severus:
yes.. hopefully it will melt away soooon.
Mar 24, 2006
magneticflux:
It's called "determinism", my friend wink

You arent at the helm, yet you can still sit back and enjoy the ride.

That's the best dream with cybernetic instability as its content that I've ever heard of.

I never really regarded it as passive observerism though. Even if this "I" isn't "in control", you will still ending up doing things regardless of the ultimate locus of causation. Body,brain,mind acts and consciouness is the informant,often quite literally after the fact, in real time.

[Edited on Apr 06, 2006 1:53AM]
Apr 5, 2006

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