sounds like much more then your ready to bare. i could tell you two different things. one would be what you want to hear the other would be the truth. but i can't say either is my place. you know what you need to do...
i can offer you a free candle!!! we opened a kiosk at lynnhaven, so stop by and i'll hook you up.
Why do you have to go home to your mom just because your fiance doens't know what he wants? Where you are may suck, the entire state does not. Don't fool yourself into thinking that going home will eliminate your empty feelings. They will follow you wherever you go until you deal with them. What has made him change his mind? Aren't you going to school here? What is going on with your parents' situation? Will it be better for you there? Why don't we pick a random place to move and both start over ? Yes, I know there are a lot of questions, but this is what you get when you don't update in a long time!!!!! I luv ya girlie, and I miss you. Please take care and CALL ME if you want to vent without gettin a hand cramp!!!
Aww sweety. Im sorry you are sad. That boy doesnt deserve you its obvious. You need to go back to the old country and forget about the dirty south. You are not long for that world if you ask me. You deserve all the things you desire and wish for, and dont settle for anything less cuz you are so beautiful, so charming and so much better than all that rubbish. Dont give up honey, little bumps in the road, thats all. Im realizing that marriage in itself has change alot in our days, and people may not be that cut out for it. My cousin for example just cancelled his wedding that was set to take place in two weeks from now. He did what he had to do, and I understand. My sister is getting married in a month, and thats crazy if you ask me. I really like her fiance, but she is only 26! I guess im just anti marriage. I hang out will all these queers and sluts who are so anti marriage. haha
well, I dont really know what im talking about here...
I dont know if im being comforting or not..
But take care of you honey and do what you gotta do and damn the consequences, sometimes you just gotta look out for yourself. Never make any apologies for doing what you think is best for you, and you will be fine. You should come to Montreal so me and the MTL SG's can show you a good time and make you forget all bout that boy.
"Im gonna wash that man right outta my hair"
"Im gonna sweep that man right outta my arms"
ps: take it from this little cowboy, you are mad hot, and you can have anything or anyone your desire wink wink
The best I can give you is that I've been there before .... and I made it through ... even though I didn't allways want to. It's really going to turn out in the end you know ? I know it sounds like bull poo right now ... but it really will sweetie.
I was going to marry a guy who beat me. I had it all thought out ... we would get married , he would change , we would have kids , he would change. I thought I could make him a better person. But then one day I realized that was up tp him not me.
I didn't want to leave at all ... I had put so much effort into the relationship ... it seemed such a shame to just "give it up."
But I did ... and now my life has gone places it never would have if I had stayed.
You're smart and beautiful ... you really do have the whole world. Fuck him if he can't see that.
well i spent the last two days with a hang over and then getting drunk the next day... so i feel like shit rite now.. i work tomorrow buts its only 2-11 so im thinking about getting trashed again tonite. i mean ill still be able to get some sleep afterwards so itll be ok i think. i dunno well see.. anyways...
how are things with everyone else?
well my dill hole of a boyfriend wants me to stay and i wanna work things out but hes being an asshole at almost every chance he gets which sux. and then he wants to get all sappy and sorry when i get ready to pack my shit because of him playing little games.
hell get really mad over the littlest things and call me immature and irresponsible and then when i get mad and say well if im bothering u that much then maybe we both made mistakes he wants to say sorry and crap. like today. theres a little scratch on the car and he was yelling and screaming at me like the front end was totalled and when i came back inside from looking at the car i started dumping my stuff out the drawers and he wanted to say sorry and make it all better. i mean after saying sorry all day for a few days wouldnt u think itd get old kinda fast and lose its meaning. when i didnt hug him back and acept his apology he juss says fine fuck it fuck u. what an ass hole
i only get 2 days off a week and he wanted to spend them both gone and i had made plans for us to spend time cuz that was one of the problems before we started fighting. we never spent enough time together-- and not the sitting on the couch being angry kinda time either.... and then he got mad when i stayed gone and didnt come back for a couple nites. wuts the point of coming home? as soon as i get home he leaves and doesnt come back for at least 6 hours. so oh well.
im not gonna sit around and look like an idiot because he wants to play the damn hokie pokie.... he makes me sick sometimes... well hell most of the time now. i dont even know wut to do anymore. i really dont. poop on a stick man...
? Yes, I know there are a lot of questions, but this is what you get when you don't update in a long time!!!!! 
I luv ya girlie, and I miss you. Please take care and CALL ME if you want to vent without gettin a hand cramp!!!
talk to you soon
xoxo,
j