well time for a wee update, I went to church for the first time in years today. Still not quite sure how I feel about it though. I was pestered to death by my 2 kids who both really really wanted to go as they have been learning all about Jesus at school. Guess I'll go again next week.........who knows maybe one day I'll feel that all-encompassing love I used to. Be interested to know if their are any Christians on here with any advice for me.