About me...
I used to be a very sociable person, and through a long series of unfortunate events that is my life, I have become bottled up and very quiet in new social situations so to speak. I am ready and trying to break out of this bottle and so far so good.
I love to write, something I used to do, not professionally, creatively. Something else that I have lost touch with, and am currently working on. I write poetry, only when I'm heartbroken, it's the way I have found to heal. I haven't written any in a very long time. Which should be a good thing in my case. But its only because I haven't truly loved someone for that long. I've had what I would call 3 major heartbreaks in my life, and I have not let my wall down since. Someday Perhaps. I have found that when I was young, trust with my heart is something I was careless about. As I have grown wiser, (I think) I am all Fort Know with it. It sucks not having someone to share life with though...
Character flaws:
Anal Retentive.
It was even listed on one of my job evaluations before. Pretty bad when your boss puts it in writing on your yearly review ... I'm not so bad though, I'm a "thinker" my brain never shuts off. There is always something being thought about in my head. I wish I could be like some people and" just turn it off" is that even possible?
Other than that, I think I'm ok. I'm a pretty quiet guy. I hate drama, why must people make a big deal of things? I am not petty. I consider myself to be a generous and genuine person. I'm one of those people who should win the lottery. I wouldn't blow the money on bull shit. I would have a nice car or two, and everywhere I go, I would hand out hundreds for tips. Like go to dinner, here's a hundred bucks, hit up the drive thru, Hey! have a hundred bucks! But only to the people that look like they are really trying...
I want a house in the country, with a wraparound porch, just outside of a city. For you Big City people.... I've had friends come to Kansas to visit. Why? beats me. But the one thing they couldn't get over is the big wide open spaces. I live in a City with about a half million people. But we can drive 10 mins outside of town and there is nothing but farm land for as far as you can see. I've been to California a lot, I love it. But damn, it's so crowded. Why does Rodeo Drive look so big on TV? I cruised through Hollywood, The Chinese Theater. Pinkys! It looks so huge on tv. I went there for real and I was like "this is it? WTF?"
Well, this is just a start of me getting out of my bottle...
to be continued...