So my manager started saying "So this thing about native americans" and my co-worker just looked at me like "oh! let's see what he has to say about this," and I just gave full interest and said, "Yes, what about native americans?"

That made him fumble for a second. haha

In my adventures of figuring out more music stuff, I just want it to be interesting. I think if I didn't listen to metal, I'd probably listen to classical music cause pop music is just really boring to me. At work I counted on many times they said "so close" in a phrase. 4 times. 4 fucking times. And it was just one...
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For a long time I thought there were "wrong" things to be doing in music, but with new insights about melodies, motifs, and developing stuff, it's quickly changing.

I would more or less stumble on ideas that I liked and would turn into songs, but now I am thinking I could do just about thing and if I develop it the right way it...
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1. Nothing is a bigger motivator than something that benefits you.

2. My job doesn't matter.

I've been working more on my music and figured out stuff I need to do and how to do it, or at least get myself there. And it's very important to me.

My job....is just a means for me to live. I want to do...
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I had lunch with my mom today and she now knows. It's a bit of a relief now, but that just makes it that much more real. I'm being very choosy of who I tell.

It's nothing bad, something to look forward to. I just keep thinking about it, and I'm sure it will happen this year.

I wasn't initially trying to seek his approval. One day at work, things just changed and he went from talking shit to me like guys do, to telling me I was doing a good job and thanking me for this and that. A part of me looked up to him. I did like working with him, we could talk about whatever and I had...
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