I think you've got my favorite answer so far (jeez - at the risk of offending anyone else!). I always thought I'd rather have absolute beauty, too - but could never put my finger on precisely why. I knew it boiled down to my aesthetic nature, and had something to do with beauty being power...but that's as far as I got!
And by the way, thank you for the enthusiastic welcome-back!
I love "Harold and Maude"...
and dare i say.... i love Cat Stevens also ( well his music anyway )
But i'm not sure what his name is now...
Mohammed something?
Still, great songs came out of the man at one time.
And some of those tunes are on the soundtrack
