I think its weird in our society sees things so differently between men and women. Right now the double standard of bisexuality. Everyone seems to be completely ok with women exploring with other women, but the second a man admits to wanting to explore he is looked down upon. I don't mean to trivialize women in this, I am aware that alot of women are given a hard time about it too. Yet guys are down right hated when they admit to having or wanting to play with another guy. This is why I don't tell many people about my desires in this area. I am afraid of the reactions it will cause, and I don't like being afraid. I guess that is why I am typing this out now, a way of facing that fear. I have started to consider myself bisexual, but to be honest the only label for me really is sexual. I like almost everything involving sex, with some of the stranger kinks either not interesting or not understood by me. But every now and then i get in the mood to experience sex with another man, and now is one of those times. It just happens to be one of those things that has only gotten harder over time to find the right situation. Lets face it, men are whores. They will sleep with almost anyone, which brings safety concerns into mind. It is also hard for me since alot of guys are assholes when it comes to weight, and I am a bit heavier than most. But I have a wife and family, and female sub to all keep safe and healthy. I also have the fear of getting to know a guy, getting together, and possibly hurting him if after getting to explore that I am not interested anymore in getting together and that hurting him. There really isn't a point to this I guess except for wanting to get this out somehow. So if you read this hoping to find something profound, I do apologize. The deepest thing here is that its fucked up that its ok for one sex to play with itself but not the other, and we all need to just learn to be ok with each other and not worry about shit like that.