desormais

so yeah.

Thursday at noon i blacked out. the next thing i remember is waking up on friday at around 2pm. apparently in between, i was still awake, but essentially a zombie. i hit a curb and had to have triple a put a donut on it; somehow got my clavicles pierced....i don't remember any of this.

am i not allowed to be frightened to death about me blacking out? i wasn't drinking, i didn't have drugs
until AFTER the blackout (other than the TWO xanax i took before it all happened?) how am i supposed to feel? seriously. some people are blowing this off like no big deal but god...i'm just so scared..

i feel like a piece of shit. thanks a lot. god i hate myself, i feel so confused...