What to do now that I getbto enjoy my days off...not much to do. I can't stop thinking about you. Why do you have to haunt my dreams? Feeling down in the slumps today, I don't get it what am I doing wrong? Maybe I just need to get outta here, Im about ready to take my knife and do something bad.
Sitting in my room looking out the window, its alittle breezy but a nice night. I can hear some coyotes in the distance. Crickets singing to each other, dogs barking. Its so nice ............
That would be awesome if something was walking around out there in the trees watching me. At least I wouldn't be alone. Really thinking about smoking cigarettes again, my nerves are....shaky. Can't wait till Wednesday so I can get some green, if you know what I mean. Then all the pheens come out. Why do people only come out when they want something. Like when I need something like just someone to talk to they turn then other cheek. Take my friend for instant, she had guy trouble...a lot of guy trouble and drama. i hate that shes putting herself and her daughter through this. I liked her till she sort of turned her back on me. I was really at the end of my ropes and if she was in my position I would've been there for her. In sitting there crying my eyes to her about what I ws going through and in the middle if it all she forgets all about me. She says I'm one of her best friends but I dint feel like it. Same with everyone else I call a friend. We all know each other and I'm pushed ton the side. What am i tLking about?
It's so peaceful outside. Maybe I'll take a walk in the woods in a bit. Let my iPad charge. Don't know how long I'll be out.
Sitting in my room looking out the window, its alittle breezy but a nice night. I can hear some coyotes in the distance. Crickets singing to each other, dogs barking. Its so nice ............
That would be awesome if something was walking around out there in the trees watching me. At least I wouldn't be alone. Really thinking about smoking cigarettes again, my nerves are....shaky. Can't wait till Wednesday so I can get some green, if you know what I mean. Then all the pheens come out. Why do people only come out when they want something. Like when I need something like just someone to talk to they turn then other cheek. Take my friend for instant, she had guy trouble...a lot of guy trouble and drama. i hate that shes putting herself and her daughter through this. I liked her till she sort of turned her back on me. I was really at the end of my ropes and if she was in my position I would've been there for her. In sitting there crying my eyes to her about what I ws going through and in the middle if it all she forgets all about me. She says I'm one of her best friends but I dint feel like it. Same with everyone else I call a friend. We all know each other and I'm pushed ton the side. What am i tLking about?
It's so peaceful outside. Maybe I'll take a walk in the woods in a bit. Let my iPad charge. Don't know how long I'll be out.