I fucking hate my family!!!!!! my two brothers (24 & 7) are fucking lazy slobs! my mom is a psycho bitch who loves to play favorites.
i have to go out in the arizona heat to pick up my little brother from his bus stop AGAIN! the last time the fucking moron didn't get off the bus...he decided to drive around the city some more...i hate that fucking little brat!
my mom gets off work at 3:30, and somehow she can't make it there in 25 minutes...it's a 15 minute drive.
and plus, his bus stop is seriously 3 BLOCKS FROM OUR HOUSE!!!!
he's almost 8 years old... i think he can walk fucking 3 BLOCKS!!!!!!! he is going to be one fucked up little shit someday. he's nearly 8 and he still sleeps in his mom's bed!!! and this is mostly her choice...he has a bed and matress (yes we dont have a spare room, but her room still has plenty of space for a small bed), she is just too fucking lazy to get it set up. she comes home from work (sitting in front of a computer all day) and goes to sleep on the couch for hours...all night sometimes, then wakes up, orders pizza, goes to bed. she doesn't ever help him w/ his homework, or talk to him, or even care what he's doing. she says she just doesn't care anymore....well if she doesn't care she should have never fucking had him! she is incredibly selfish. she just wanted a baby...she didn't want a kid.
i've had to practically raise the fucker, that's why i decieded that i'm probably not having kids. and if any one, and i'm not going to do these incredibly selfish things that my mom does.
i know alot of people will get mad at their families and say ''oh, i hate them'', but they dont really mean it. well, i fucking mean it! especially my mother. i despise her with every fiber of my being... i hate her. i've had fantasies about killing her, coming from behind and bashing her head in w/ a baseball bat... it makes me all calm and happy to think about that.
i dont care if it sounds sick or fucked up. she's tortured me my whole life in one way or another. i hate her guts.
this is a side of me that pretty much only she can bring out. i dont think it's a regular mother/daughter love/hate relationship. she brings out this rage in me that is never there otherwise. i have never known anyone to bring out as much hatred and rage and anger and violent feelings in me as she can.
ok, i guess now is the time to end my psycho rant. please no one be frightened. i'm really good at not displacing my anger on others... i pretty much just keep it inside or hit walls and stuff (which i've been doing alot of lately). i can sometimes transfer my tension from this house into other relationships but if one has patience w/ me and understands my homelife, then i will calm down in no time.
ok, officially end psycho venting rant.
i feel better now.
i have to go out in the arizona heat to pick up my little brother from his bus stop AGAIN! the last time the fucking moron didn't get off the bus...he decided to drive around the city some more...i hate that fucking little brat!
my mom gets off work at 3:30, and somehow she can't make it there in 25 minutes...it's a 15 minute drive.
and plus, his bus stop is seriously 3 BLOCKS FROM OUR HOUSE!!!!
he's almost 8 years old... i think he can walk fucking 3 BLOCKS!!!!!!! he is going to be one fucked up little shit someday. he's nearly 8 and he still sleeps in his mom's bed!!! and this is mostly her choice...he has a bed and matress (yes we dont have a spare room, but her room still has plenty of space for a small bed), she is just too fucking lazy to get it set up. she comes home from work (sitting in front of a computer all day) and goes to sleep on the couch for hours...all night sometimes, then wakes up, orders pizza, goes to bed. she doesn't ever help him w/ his homework, or talk to him, or even care what he's doing. she says she just doesn't care anymore....well if she doesn't care she should have never fucking had him! she is incredibly selfish. she just wanted a baby...she didn't want a kid.
i've had to practically raise the fucker, that's why i decieded that i'm probably not having kids. and if any one, and i'm not going to do these incredibly selfish things that my mom does.
i know alot of people will get mad at their families and say ''oh, i hate them'', but they dont really mean it. well, i fucking mean it! especially my mother. i despise her with every fiber of my being... i hate her. i've had fantasies about killing her, coming from behind and bashing her head in w/ a baseball bat... it makes me all calm and happy to think about that.
i dont care if it sounds sick or fucked up. she's tortured me my whole life in one way or another. i hate her guts.
this is a side of me that pretty much only she can bring out. i dont think it's a regular mother/daughter love/hate relationship. she brings out this rage in me that is never there otherwise. i have never known anyone to bring out as much hatred and rage and anger and violent feelings in me as she can.
ok, i guess now is the time to end my psycho rant. please no one be frightened. i'm really good at not displacing my anger on others... i pretty much just keep it inside or hit walls and stuff (which i've been doing alot of lately). i can sometimes transfer my tension from this house into other relationships but if one has patience w/ me and understands my homelife, then i will calm down in no time.
ok, officially end psycho venting rant.
i feel better now.