No, a relationship is not being "Dependent" on the other person. It is Building the life together so you both grow and form a partnership! Please do not disappear! I love your spunk, wit and, well...you do have a nice ass so that does not hurt... LOL
I wish I could cheer you up @deliriumgrey. You're an amazing person and I wish you weren't feeling that way but we all have those kinds of feelings. I've been depressed lately myself. I hope you cheer up soon. You're beautiful, cool and real. One of my favorite people here. Big hugs and kisses! 😙
The fear of being vulnerable is always part of it all exhilarating. Just embrace and go into it wanting to be with the other person, while not being dependant on them.