Dear Noelle
You would have been 27 today. The same age Kurt Cobain was when he chose to leave this world. I think you would have taken a bit of solace with knowing that. I'm still trying to comprehend the fact that you're gone, to me it feels like you're off on one of your wild adventures and are having too much of a blast to bother checking in and maybe, just maybe you are.
I love you... you told me that many times but I never told you, but I hope you knew that.
Our artistic endeavors began around the same time with both of just having just a few shoots under our belts, and never knowing that because of our work together it in fact was a cultivation of friendship between two people creating and capturing.
You told me you wouldn't live to see 30. I hate that you were right. No matter what happened you seemed invincible and I told you once that you were a survivor and could get through anything because if you didn't you wouldn't be here. I don't really know what else to say about that other than me wishing that I was completely right about that.
You changed my life more than you can ever know. We had our ups and downs but it's funny how the downs just bleed into nothingness and all of it doesn't matter. You had a heart of gold but you only revealed it to quite a few.
One moment that your true self and your heart was revealed to me was that night at my house where you were trying to get both your parents in the same place for the holidays. For one reason or another things weren't working out and you were upset. I held you while you cried your tears and tried to comfort you the best that I could. I knew that this Noelle was the true Noelle a Noelle that hardly anyone knew and I wondered how many people you revealed that to.
I'll remember the good times
I'll remember how you always said Shit fire
I'll remember your passion for life
I'll remember your beauty and your brains
I'll remember meeting you for the first time with @silvi and how @rambo you and myself always had a special bond.
Most of all i'll miss you. Noelle, Carrina my friend.
Goodbye for now I hope you're at peace at last. Be free angel, give them hell wherever you are.
