darling69

so it appears im having a seizures and the worst part is they have`nt got a clus ,it sure is scary first one happened at home in my room while doing my hair , i fell off my bed and dislocated my shoulder woke in pain with 4 ambulance /firemen over me and looking off to the side i see my kids and those poor things, the fear in thier eyes was saddening .

so after a million and ten test and 2 days in hospital nothing just popped my shoulder back in ,thank gawsh they put you to sleep i cant imagine how painfull it must have been ,so after wards the pain and fear i was in was just awful i was devistated to have been through this awfull ordeal .

okso a week later im at walmart ,i wanted to go wash my hands ,while walking twards the bathroom i was feeling dizzy and i kinda been that way all day and the days passing so i just took a xanax and walked slow ,anyhow i went into the bathroom and boom i was down straigh back busted open my head and had a bump the size of a golf ball and when i awoke i was looking into the eyes of my husband and hearing people talking about whatever it sounded more like charlie brown blabber ,then i hear someone say i`ll call 911 or would you like me to call 911 something like that ,so again im off to e.r. and im terified im crying i , cant talk my teeth are clenched i`ve bitten my cheeks to pieces as well as my husbands finger while he was trying to keep me from injuring my self swallowing my tounge or bitting it off whatever ......so 3 days spent in the hospital they decide they will figure out why this is happening and again a million and ten test and nothing ,they just go with the assumption my antidepressant (wellbutrin ) may be causing these what fucken ever i been on the shit over 5 years so they send in some neuroligist to tell me this and then change up all me meds (asshole) adding klonopin to the mix increasing lamictal and adding effexor and stopping xanax blah blah blah ........i go home eventually see my psychiatrist and he`s pist off that this doctor would do this with out contacting him so he changes it all back lets me stay on klonopinn its an antiseizure med but im thinking its gonna make me fat im scared about that i lost alot of weight its been tough and i do not want to gain it back cause of that aghhhhhhhh.

and they still dont know know why im having seizures so fuck it im done with the med klonopin all my other shit has not made me gain weight so im sticking with those only .they dont know why anyway so why torture my self with weight gain .

i kinda quit drinking and drugs months ago also so for all this to happen npopw really sucks woulda made sense if it happened when im poppin E .........i wonder if i should finish off the last 2 ..........

the assholes faxed a paper to the D.M.V. SO NOW IM LICENCE LESS they too my licence away ,i can no longer drive my lovely beautifull loved 64 chevy how i dearly adore my car it will sit or i will be taxied around in it FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SOME REALLY AWFULL SHIT THIS PAST FEW MONTHS IM REALLY HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME HERE ,not to mention im now having to home school my son he`s in the fn 7th grade shiyt how im gonna manage that ................its a longer story .

phewwwwwwwwww