acctually.. i wasn't sober at all whan I wrote to you... but I didn't mean sex. I meant meaning... It's hard to express... especially in a language that's not your own.. But what I meant was something like this: I hadn't experienced a meaningful relationship til I was 21. Before that I just felt like you said - that I an being wasted on something thats not good enough...
I know you're not going to take her! I was just kidding...
It's okay with long entries... the more meaningful the better!
Now I'm going to bed. I'm tired after burying an animal friend of mine who just died...
haha! all my friens are a lot younger than me... guess I'm avoiding growing up. So that wouldn't be a problem anyhow. I think you should talk your friends in on going with you... Travelling alone isn't that fun I think... I did that once, tarvelled alone to Berlin to meet a guy I'd only met online. He turned out to be a bore! So there I was alone in Berlin... I don't recommend it.
Is this journal entry of yours expressing some inner feelings or are you just wanting feedback?