daniofthedead

whoaaaaaaaaaa have things gone downhill since arriving home on sunday.


can somebody inform me WHAT I DID FOR HELL TO BREAK LOOSE? hm, very strange.


problems with EVERYTHING id say. only things not a problem right now = i got to hang out with my best pal aileen today since i never get to see her.


things were going pretty nice id have to say and BAM haha i arrive in shit hole reading and look what happens. i tell you, this place is no good for me. but no where really is. what an emo entry this is. ugh so much i feel i should ramble on about but there is no need. its 2 AM, i have class in a few hours and im typing a paper. i have a sketch due at 4 tomorrow that i am not doing so well on.


im trying to recall what my therapist had 'diagnosed' with me.

major depression, social anxiety, slight OCD (ha?), self-destruction behaviors and some other stupid stuff. you'd think if i really was as messed up as she made me seem, she'd have had me doped up on some crazy meds. but she made sure to tell me that im an okay gal stupid cunt. i still am bitter about that lady and all the time that was wasted.

i'd say i handle myself very well in social situations, just add alcohol. meh, giggle. this is so long. why cant i type my paper. very stressed and lots of changes occuring UGH!

if i could, id be kicking the shite out of 'life'.

im feeling super emo right now. its gross. i feel like i've soiled myself. okay fuck it, ill go at this paper some more.

thanks for reading if you actually made it thru all that rambling shit.

she'll ask me when do i stop--------when the bottle's empty