I know how you feel hon.
I was like that..i would put myself out for all my friends and then just get walked on. So you know what i did? I injected some of the blackness back into my heart. And then everyone that was pretending to be my friend just so they could use me up, fucked off. Friends can be high maintenance.
But if you're ever in aussie....i'll go and do some girlie stuff with ya...you can put my hair in pigtails.
I know exactly how you feel my dear. It's hard to find good people who you can count on to be there for you instead of just when they need you for something. It's a shame that we live so very far away from another, because I think we would get along just fine. Either way, I'm still here in internet land so do holler when you need to talk, ok?
Hi Daisy, thanks for inviting me to your friends list. Reading your blog entry rings a lot of bells with me. I don't really have any completely close female friends - just one down the country but she's not even that reliable, I don't know if I could count on her in an emergency. It kills me because I pay so much attention to people, I invest so much love in others and hope too, and then I get let down and feel lonely and crushed. Maybe i'm overly sensitive or too needy, I dunno. I seem to be the 'nice' friend that gets pushed to the background - I think everyone in my group of friends are just drinking buddies, not someone I can have to just call over unexpectedly with a bottle of wine for a good chat. They meet to get a group together for party purposes - bodies, that's all some people nedd - just bodies, it doesn't matter who they are with as long as they have company. Why do I make friends with these people, they're all so selfish. If I cut contact then I'll be left completely alone though.
I know what you mean, and thankfully, I suppose, a lot of us do as well. Getting out of a relationship isn't the easiest thing, but I've told you all this before. After I settled down for a few months, I just concentrated on being more honest with myself. I had built up a lot of scar tissue around my brain as a protection, and it was helping me feel very sad. I found a way to let out all the things I had been bottling up, just by slowly changing perspective and realising that it was healthy to think about myself, consider myself and that it's not a bad or evil thing to look for peace within your own mind rather than pleasing others. It's not to say that you're any less nice to people - it just meant for me to be nice for the right reasons - because I wanted to be nice rather than feeling I had to be nice for people's attention. I don't know if any of my crap means anything to you at all, I can offer understanding, and the assurance that, from someone like minded, it doesn't always have to be this way. Just think about it.
no no no my questions not important as I haven't narrowed it down to a quetion yet eep I'm confusing!
I meant do you want to talk to me in response to the above blog
also is your set really going up?
I hope that tonight's event helps cheer you up a bit. I know I"m sure looking forward to it!
I totally understand what you mean. I woke up one day and realized I didn't have friends either. I find it difficult to meet people too; I'm not a social person. Chin up, darling, good luck. Try to enjoy your new man.
I went through a similar situation. I was being treated like a doormat until I could no longer take it. I was so desperate for a nice girls friendship I was bending over backwards. Im get very lonely too and Im very shy. . I wrote about it in my blog.
Well believe it or not I have suffered from the same complaint about being too nice, and the inevitable situation it creates of you loosing out.
What I`ve come to believe is that if something is offered beyond the norm, then some people will abuse it, but not everyone. You can sort of use your niceness to develop opinions about people. You know, give em enough rope and see what they do with it.
I think as you get older its harder to have that `best friend` you talk about. People are less available as they get in relationships and work commitments. That doesn`t mean you can`t plan a day of shopping or whatever, you just need to think in advance rather than the spontaneous way you were used to.
I`m glad typing it all out helped, I know I find this site very useful for that.
I`m off to look at your new set, expect compliments
love the smell od daisys after the rain just waiting to be plucked! love the set and i truly hope you find that friend if not then try a dirty old man. it's not well know but we are sometimes on the weird side and like to go shopping, talk, read, laugh and do other things along with touching sweet young things.
live long and love well
blessings from Some Old Hippy
Yeah both my girlie friends moved away this year and I have none here either. It really sucks. And I know that I used to be surrounded by friends, make new ones everywhere I went but since I moved here I found it much harder. I've been slowly getting involved with people from work but its difficult and they all seem to have made this unspoken bond as soon as they arrived that somehow I was left out of the loop on.
I miss doing girlie stuff too.
I don't really understand any of the world at all to be honest. I think I know, but honestly, I haven't a clue.
