I think your dream is telling you that you are killing yourself when you look for others to make you feel beautiful. You need to realize that you are beautiful on your own. When you reach out for validation it often cost you. Your mother is crying because this symbolizes the mother in yourself that has has unconditional love for her child. And wants you to have the same love for yourself like you love your child.
Every guy on this site will validate your beauty but you have to believe it in yourself.
