i never realized how much id miss this site since im not very active. but since my cable modem got shut off and this phine line takes so long to get on i rarely do. i noticed im going through withdraw. and i see all these multible photosites and i refuse to click them because ill just piss myself off when it takes an hour. i also realized after the philly show that im not sure why im so intimidated by people. i mean im not really bad looking and im an awesome person to be around when i know you. i saw some of these guys wih such beautiful women at the show and the way they acted and i know that i would actually be a good catch for someone. whatever one of these days ill make myself happy. well the mom dukes is back in a program i think she is pissed at me because she asked me to come and visit her before she left and i avoided it. i guess its really rude and selfish of me, but i cant stand to see some of the shit she does to herself. ive dealt with it all my life and she was doing so fuckin good. that she pisses me off. i feel horrible for not going there but i just didnt know if i could handle it. ill go visit her once she cleans up a bit and gets a little more clear headed. maybe this time she might actually make it. i dont know, this is the longest program other than jail that she has ever been in. its 6 months. and she is two hours away so her boyfriend cant just pop up and get her fucked uo while she is there. ill just keep my fingers crossed......

Dignity and love do not blend well, nor do they continue long together.
Ovid (43 BC - 17 AD)