The last few weeks I've really been thinking. Like I've been back from the city for 2 years now, and I've been on the methadose program for a little over a year now. Everybody keeps congratulating me and telling me what a great job I'm doing, but I really don't see it. I mean I just switched one drug for another I still get pretty high everyday so it really wasn't that hard. And don't get me wrong I haven't been a total angel since I've started the program. If I want to do heroin I'm going to do it just as long as its not everyday. I've came to this realisation that I really like heroin so much that I know I can't do it everyday. And I know if I do it everyday I can't do it anymore, so I'll just do it once and awhile so I can keep doing it. But anyways back to the methadose, the only good thing about it is I'm not spending as much money but it still seems like a total cash grab. Where I'm from first I have to pay the clinic 60$ a month, then every week I have to pay the pharmacists 20$ just to be witnessed drinking it. So thats 140$ a month before I've even actually paid for the methadose I think that's bullshit. Like I guess most people in my situation are on social assistance so the government pays it, but what about people like me who actually work. I've switched this
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Also its my birthday on Thursday and I get some work done on my neck on Saturday I'll keep you posted.