bah i hate bad drivers like does it really make a diffrence to wait like 2 min for a light to change green instead of trying to beat the red. i use to watch dragon ball z every day after school my sophomore year of high school. i hardly ever have time for tv anymore except late at night when the only good thing on are mtv music videos. i drive to the ie at least once a week. two of my best friends live in riverside and redlands. that's the only reason i would ever go there though. well that and shows at the showcase. i was debating between north oc, sf, and las vegas but vegas is out now. i don't know though. we'll def see. and i'll let you know when my set goes up for sure. i am excited about it. more nervous than excited but def excited.

i use to move alot when i was younger, then i lived in the same house for 13 years before i moved out in high school. it's weird but even though i had a 'home' for 13 years it never felt like home. the apartment i lived in when i moved out was about half the size of my old room but it felt more like home in the first day then i have ever felt anywhere else. eventually i just want a two bedroom house. a room for me and a room for anyone ever in need of a place to stay. that's like my dream. just some place to always call home. nothing fancy or big, just some place that is all mine. i can't wait to move again. i know in the next place i live i'm going to make it all mine and i plan on living there for at least 4 years so i'll have some stability in life.
when my set goes up you can look at it. i really dont' care. if i didn't want anyone to see me nude online i wouldn't have done it. i really don't get weirded out by it at all. the only thing that makes me feel sick is when i have like guys who are suppose to be like my best friends trying to see them early and being mean about it when i say no. they're suppose to be my friends and it's like they're treating me as a piece of meat and not respecting me at all. and those are the people who i hope never look at them because i know when they talk about them they're not going to talk about it in the way i intended them to be talked about. i don't even know if that makes sense. but thank you. i really respect the fact that you offered that. it means alot. and i really do enjoy writing back and forth with you. i hope your day goes great. xo

haha seeee i really do have an unhealthy obsession with closets! i've always been closer to girls but in the end it always fucks me over. having a friend backstab you is honestly the worst feeling in the world. my longest lasting friendships are with guys but that's because i don't open up enough to get hurt most of the time. i'm really happy to hear that you made a wonderful life for yourself. i hope to be the same way. i moved out half way through my senior year of high school with 3 dollars in my bank account. some how i managed to work full time as well as go to school and graduate. it was def one of the most rewarding times of my life. it was weird on graduation day sitting out there thinking more than half the kids there didn't know what it ment to pay rent or eat tortillas as a meal every day for a week. it made me grow up and learn abotu life a lot more. everyone always tells me i'm 19 going on 90. i've been pretty much an open book about my feelings for the last year. i think after 18 years of not sharing anything i had to or i would explode. and i'm really glad i have someone to chit chat back and forth to. even if it's once in the morning before either of us go to work or on a break or what ever, i'm really grateful i have someone to write back and forth with. thank you. ok time for bed. xo