I've reached a moment in my life where I've finally come to admit that i'm absolutely uncertain about myself. A lot of my choices up to this point I've recently come to question, and just who I am in general. There's a lot about me that even I don't understand. Why I've chosen to do what I do and be who I am. Just the underlining logic behind it all eludes me. Sometimes it almost feels like i'm living inside someone else's body.
So what's a guy to do? In a world that judges you on anything and everything, it's hard to make any sort of major decision, especially since I've always been a people pleaser. Other people's opinions highly affect me. This usually causes me to just hide in my own little world and avoid the public domain whenever possible.
God this headache is a pain in the ass lol. I suppose it's mostly due to me denying my body sleep. I mean, I've stayed up late before, but usually cave into my body's demands within a few hours. Tonight though, I've somehow come up with the thought that it'll be neat to pull an all nighter. Part of me is like "You fucking idiot! Go to bed!" Meh, I might go to bed soon. We'll see.
So what's a guy to do? In a world that judges you on anything and everything, it's hard to make any sort of major decision, especially since I've always been a people pleaser. Other people's opinions highly affect me. This usually causes me to just hide in my own little world and avoid the public domain whenever possible.
God this headache is a pain in the ass lol. I suppose it's mostly due to me denying my body sleep. I mean, I've stayed up late before, but usually cave into my body's demands within a few hours. Tonight though, I've somehow come up with the thought that it'll be neat to pull an all nighter. Part of me is like "You fucking idiot! Go to bed!" Meh, I might go to bed soon. We'll see.