I've never really been able to separate the pain of seeing people I love from the frustration and sense of loss at saying goodbye to them again. Seems you're in the same place. :/
Good work kicking that banana's ass in the bar though.
And re: SG ... I can't imagine how it feels to be a Pink SG and know that your photos are up and out and about, but I can say that if anyone should stumble across you, they'll be impressed. ... and in all likelihood, unless you've got family that is quite internet savvy, and unless you've got real-life friends who know your fam and know your sitch on here, that it'd be relatively unlikely that you'd be found.
I know how you feel about seeing red! It's happened to my before. Not a fight in years and next thing I knew I was arrested in school senior year. not fun.
So is he mad at you about is gf? Sorry that get together got off on the wrong foot. I would feel like shit.
And sometimes, you just need some time to yourself. I feel if I'm ever acting out of personality it's because I need me time. My inner self is being to cooped up. Go do something you feel relates to you on a soulful level, either with some one like a family member or by your self ^-^ feel better