I try to believe that this whole circle of life simply gives an understanding of the value of life itself. But yes, it's scary if you look deeper into this topic.
@avecalluna that’s an interesting perspective. Life and death give understanding to the meaning of existence. It’s a little like having the answer without knowing the question. A good thought exercise.
It is really hard loosing a parent, especially one you are so close to. Not very many can truly put themselves in your shoes until it is to late. Your mother is definitely proud of you! She never completely left, energy cannot be created or destroyed, so enjoy this human experience, it won't last long.
Thank you @allyx for your kind words. You nailed it on the head about relating about the situation. Unfortunately from your insight I take it you’ve lost as well. If so you truly have my sympathy. If not, I’m very much appreciate your empathy/insight. People like you are the ones that make this community so special.
