chazgasm

so lets see, home is going, ok at best, my mother and father really cant seem to get ahold of the concept that they agrivate me and put me in the bad moods i get in. still sexless but oh well thats life i guess, i could use a good woman in my life. im tempted to go back to school to work for the rest of the summer in like july just to get outta this place and make a decent pay check. being home just makes me miserable, makes me realize i still sorta live in a bubble world, that i dont have storys to tell, im just me. i dunno where im going with this, i guess its almost a feeling of i havnt been thru enough type thing i dunno, i guess i wish i was more of a deep thinker all the time instead of only on occasion. i really have no clue why im going off on this tangent.

i guess my goal here is, im ready for the real world, i dont want people trying to keep me from falling, let me fall and learn and move on. yeah, that sounds good